the hangover

is it possible to have a "happiness hangover"?

so far this year for me has been filled with changes, new experiences, connections, ... everything feels new new new. and while i am loving and embracing it, i am noticing a pattern of "crashing" after many of these new experiences or events. its like i have to gain my equilibrium after getting off the roller coaster.

i am the first one to say that change is good, and i prefer variety over sameness in my life. but constant change is a lot for the brain to handle and we need time to process new experiences. particularly when experiences change us, we need to get to know the "new self" and either incorporate it into our lives or find the pieces that fit and discard the rest. also we can go through a period of mourning for, or missing, a place/person/experience that particularly moved us. i often experience this when i return from a vacation.

brad pitt was asked recently if he's happy, and his reply was "happiness is overrated". at first i wondered if the implied message was that he's not. but i think his point was that its not happiness that he strives for or that he uses as an indicator for how he sees his life. that's actually a good thing, i think. no one is happy all the time. and is that really what we should be striving for? sometimes its our struggles that propel us forward or help us strive to improve. tension, even dissatisfaction, can be a good thing.

during a recent bout of feeling "down" and rather stuck, i found what i needed to cure my happiness hangover when my puppy crawled in my lap and looked up at me - i immediately felt better. it didn't change anything in my day, or the circumstances that i was struggling with in my life - but it did bring me back to the moment and make me realize that there is *always* something good to focus on -- and focusing on the present moment, as well as connecting with another being (human or otherwise) can take us out of ourselves and turn things around.

recently there was talk in the news about how "cuteness" affects our brains. looking at a baby/puppy/cute face activates pleasure centers in the brain. so next time you are feeling down, or crash after a high, take a look at this pic (or find your own cuteness cure):


and see if that doesn't help your mood...after all, isn't it in the simple things of life that true happiness is found?

bouncing back

today was one long struggle... to stay awake, to get anything done, to even figure out what to get done. every time i take a red-eye, i remember why they call it that - whether you get any sleep or not, you return with a feeling of bleary-eyed fogginess.

a few things helped me get through the day - a loooong walk by the water with my pooch, a phone call from my best friend to catch up (on the week), and a phone call from a perpetual "phone-tag"ing friend to catch up (on the year).


i started thinking about why these things combined to not only get me through the day but make me feel better so quickly and bring me back to myself.

• the first helped me breathe, be more alert, get into the moment, and stretch my eyes (and my legs)

• the second helped me review an amazing week - the big moments, the small wonders, the blessings galore - as well as get out of my self-absorbed state to hear her stories and reconnect in a way that you can only do with someone who knows you like a sister

• the third helped me put things in perspective.... when you connect with someone you haven't seen in awhile you tend to talk bigger-picture. it can be a good way to assess where you've come, where you're going, and not only chart your progress but organize your thoughts and feelings around it. and telling these things to someone who you know is in your corner can also help you feel supported, and be an impetus to propel you forward.

the next time i feel sluggish, stuck, or out of sorts, i plan to try to simulate today's remedy for my red-eye-induced fogginess and see if this formula will work for me again: get up and move, assess the source of the emotions, and then pull back to get the broader view and put things in perspective.

and i'll make sure i have a couple friends and my cute dog around for support :-)

the dash

last night I attended a fundraiser for the Cardinal Stepinac Children's Center, in Port au Prince Haiti. about 140 people came together with the goal of raising money to build a school for the 50 orphaned/abandoned children who live there.

the guest of honor at the event was Miss America 2011, Teresa Scanlon. during her speech she talked about how volunteering in Haiti has changed her life (boy, can i relate). she reminded us that no matter how young or old we may be, we can all start from today and live our lives with purpose, focusing on the things which are most important to us and making a difference in the way that we feel called to do so.... she read a poem which really brought that message to life - i had never heard it before but i will definitely add it to my collection:

The Dash © 1996 Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone from the beginning to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth and spoke of the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time that she spent alive on earth
And now only those who loved her know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own, the cars, the house, the cash,
What matters is how we live and love and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard; are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough to consider what’s true and real
And always try to understand the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger and show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives like we’ve never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect and more often wear a smile,
Remembering that this special dash might only last a little while.

So when your eulogy is being read with your life’s actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say about how you spent your dash?

busyness

anyone who knows me knows that i tend to be pretty busy. somewhere around my high school years i realized that i am good at multitasking and that i am happy when i have a variety of different things going on. only when i feel myself getting anxious, or when i cant get enough sleep, do i take that as a sign to dial it back, because in general i feel happier when i have a lot to do than when i don't. i suppose its because being busy makes me feel productive.

lately, though, i have been allowing myself the luxury of relaxing a bit more often - its part of my effort to be more attuned to the universe. one way i do this is conscious "wandering" on the internet -- letting click lead to click until i have no idea how i even got to where i ended up (a virtual version of flipping through a magazine or killing time at a flea market). its liberating to just see where i land what i can discover. i've found some pretty interesting people/websites/thoughts that way... or they've found me. one such post was from a pastor in LA named toure roberts. i discovered him in december when i really needed to hear some of the things he had to say. then recently i found (thru twitter) that pastor roberts has a blog. how i missed this before is a mystery, but then his blog found me just as i was thinking about my lack of focus. here is an exerpt:

"We can get so lost in busyness that we actually forget what really matters to us most in life and lose sight of the true reason for us even working. Busyness begins to take on a life of it’s own and the next thing we know we’re living the life of busyness as opposed to the life that’s according to our purpose. It’s important to remember that our purpose is not to serve busyness, but rather our busyness is to serve our purpose. This requires daily minute-by-minute moment-by-moment focus on our purpose to make certain that all of our activities and all of our comings and goings are moving us closer toward our purpose instead of furthering us away from it."

http://toureroberts.tumblr.com/post/16007714459/the-two-most-important-questions-you-can-ever-ask

it is true that we can take activity as productiveness... but not all motion leads us forward. a friend of mine calls this "twirling" - moving from place-to-place only to find we are being led in circles and not progressing.

at those times it's important to stop and check ourselves. asking questions like these, and like the 10 questions i posted previously, can help make sure we are acting with purpose.

10 questions

thought i would share this great strategy for how to FOCUS on what's really important:

10 Questions That Create Success

i think i will post these at my desk, next to my new years' resolutions and my vision board :-)

visions unfolding...

i thought i would report back on the vision-boarding session i hosted last saturday. it was so exciting to see everyone's individual vision take shape, and also to see how energized my galpals were at the process of creating something that held their unique view of what they wanted for their future.

izzy ponders her future

i also loved the discussions that took place as we spread out on the floor cutting, pasting, flipping thru magazines, searching for words and images that "spoke" to us... as we queried each other about our hopes and dreams, shared pics and offered suggestions, we also came to know each other in an intimate and supportive way. anyone walking into the room would not have realized that some of them had only met 2 hours prior!

here are some of the emails/comments/txts that i received after the event:

A: My board is hanging in my room and I feel peaceful every time I look at it!

N: had such an awesome time - it was sooo much fun! i showed it to my boyfriend - he wanted to know all about it

J1: such a relaxing way to begin the 1st weekend of 2012!

J2: I finished my vision board last night! I stayed up late to do it because I was excited about it! It came out quite differently than it was on Saturday...

the funny thing is that i never finished my own vision board -- it didn't feel quite "ready". writing this is making me want to work on it now - maybe i'll stay up late and finish mine tonite :-)

before the session was over we had already decided that this would be an annual event - it will be great to check back next january, see how the year unfolded for each of us and then begin the process again... wishing you a year of beautiful things unfolding....

new year... new dreams...

funny how difficult it is to begin a first post on a blog called "focus" :-) the idea for this blog has been swimming in my head for quite awhile now and what better day than my birthday to begin... i started off the day by pouring a cup of coffee, lighting some candles and hanging more Christmas lights (who says you have to take them *down* after the holiday?)... all things that give me the inspiration to FOCUS....



having a birthday in early january means that every year the ritual of renewing, recharging, and refocusing that we all seem to go through on new years' day is doubled for me b/c 2 days after i begin a new year on the calendar, i am also reminded to reflect on beginning a new year of my life. this year i have the amazing opportunity of being in transition - while it can feel a little unnerving at times, it is mostly exciting and invigorating to imagine what the possibilities are and how i might craft a new life for myself. but it can be difficult to sort it out...

one thing that is so important for me is to put my intentions "out there" in a concrete way. i often have thoughts swimming in my head but i don't feel settled or sure of them until i write them down, tell them to someone, or do something to cement them in my mind. last year i found a new way to do this ... "vision-boarding". as a counselor i have seen it used to great effect as a tool of expression as well as a way to focus intentions and get clear on what we want for our lives. it activates the creative side of the brain and brings inspiration to the process. it makes thinking about your life and the changes you want to see feel less like a chore (you know how looking at that to-do list saps your energy?) and more like a creative expression of the "real you" (think about how you feel when you create something beautiful - taking a photo, writing a poem, setting a beautiful table).

i started 2011 by vision-boarding with my inspirational friend louise, and so many of the things i envisioned for my life have come into being or are evolving now that this year i am hosting my own vision-boarding session to encourage others in my life to use this creative expression to help them bring what they desire into their lives. i have come to learn that you have to extend yourself to see changes in your life. verbalizing what you need/want/desire makes it real and helps it come true. and sharing it with others doubles the affirming energy....

and once its out there the universe will conspire in your favor - for example, yesterday i wrote out my new years' resolutions and through one phone call at the end of the day they began coming to frution. a friend asked if i would like to go with her to haiti (res #8 - travel, res #4 - be braver) to work with children in an orphanage her uncle runs (res #3 - find my niche in working with children, res #2 - deepen my faith and spiritual journey). how's that for prayers being answered?

so this year is about putting it out there... getting real with intentions and being braver. facing a new year and envisioning new things. dreaming new dreams and expecting them to come true.

its not about doing more, its about having FOCUS